Saturday, June 23, 2007

Dealing with the Heartaches

So often life will throw us a curve and that is when we find out just how far we really have gotten on our spiritual journey. I have a family member who battled cancer last fall and just when we thought he was on the winning end of things, he found out yesterday the cancer has returned and is in his bones. The prognosis is very dim.
How can one accept this news and continue to journey on in the expectation of new thought, new life, new energy, new birth? It seems that when we need encouragement and strentgh the very most is exactly when it is so difficult to believe.
What then shall we say to those with this tragic news. "I'm sorry" is woefully inadequate. I cannot offer platitudes of "Everything will be all right" because it is likely not true. So , together we weep and share and hold one another and do all that we are able to strengthen and life each other up.
So, bring on the light of life. Bring on the newness of dawn! Bring forth all the powers that be to fight the demons that should not. Bring hope and peace and miracles. We will accept them all.

Thursday, June 21, 2007


Hi, I thought I would stop in for a minute. Aren't unexpected visits nice? I haven't always thought so, but I must say, if I let myself slow down and get out of myself, I really enjoy having friends and/or family stop in. I used to have one of those lives that was constantly populated by many people. I always had someone stopping in or leaving or calling- it was very busy. I thought that it offered up some kind of testimony to what an amazing person I am, but lately I am looking at it from a very different point of view. What if it was simply a matter of being afraid to be alone with myself? What if it was just so much easier to avoid the things within me that needed to be faced if I kept all kinds of other people around?
Of course, I can also very easily fall into isolating myself as well. I think that is one of the things I really love about writing. It is a solitary pursuit, and it is supposed to be. In fact, if one is good enough at it, it is quite easy to simply say, "Oh no, I don't think I can have any company today, I am writing!" (Did you read that with a rather snobby voice, because I certainly did!!) Anyway, there is a huge difference between isolating and being comfortable in our own skin. I am learning to like myself. I am starting to appreciate me. I am realizing that if I can love and appreciate myself, I won't need to ever again be desperate for someone else to do that for me.


Hi there! I hope that you are well today! Today, I am pondering affirmations. Likely, we have all heard of affirmations. They are positive statements that we say to ourselves to motivate us, light us up, feed our internal selves so we become all that we have wanted to be. In the past I have tended to "poo-poo" affirmations. They just seemed so silly. I couldn't understand what possible good could come from me looking in a mirror and telling myself what a wonderful woman I am. After all, why should I listen to my opinion? My opinion didn't seem to be the one that mattered. What mattered was your opinion of me! Well, guess what I have been doing lately? That's right, affirmations. I found a wonderful website that has affirmations, prayers and meditations. Can I tell you? Well, here goes-- Debbie Ford is a life coach who is currently on ABC's The Ex Wives Club on Monday nights at 8:00 central time. I really connected with some of the things she said on the program and I went online and wha-la! there she was. Today, I encourage you to check out her website. Listen to some of the affirmations, start doing them three times a day for the next 28 days and watch what happens to the inside of yourself. I am on this 28 day journey myself. Join me and see if you love it as much as I do.
Time for me to go get my three gorgeous grandchildren and bring them to Grandma's for a bit. Have a wonderful evening and I will talk to you later!

The Search Begins

Welcome! I am so glad you are here! This blog will serve as a witness to my journey to myself. Although that sounds very self-serving, I hope that you will see a little bit of yourself here and your own journey through this life.
First, let me explain the name of this journal. All of my life I have been waiting for "it" to happen before I can truly be happy. Maybe "it" was graduating from high school or college. Maybe "it" was being married or divorced. "It" might have been having my children or maybe having them grow up and move on into their own lives. "It" could be finances, relationships, education, geography, any one of a number of things. I just knew that whenever "it" happened, then I would be content.
Guess what? "It" doesn't exist. Any success or happiness we might have in this life comes from within. All of the answers (and all of the questions) are within us. It is simply a matter of realizing this and manifesting it. Simple, right? Wrong!! Before we can manifest our heart's desire, we must first figure out what that is. Simple, right? Wrong again!! I am just beginning to learn how to figure that out, and that is the purpose of this blog. I will chronicle my journey here, and trust me, it promises to have plenty of ups and downs. Join me for this trip and lets help each other through.
Until next time,